Dear foot...

Dear left foot,
Why the anger? In the past 44 years, I think I have treated you pretty well. I nice scrubbing and pretty polish on your toes. Many years of funky socks to wear. Lord knows enough shoes to keep you from getting bored. Yet just because of a little chemo reaction (from the LAST chemo not the new clinical trial) you have not only become more pissed off than you have ever been, you have scared the dickens out of not only myself but everyone around me. You are giving me more pain than childbirth. In fact, this is honestly the most pain I think I have ever been in.It is preventing me from walking. Dr. M gave me pain meds and steroids on Friday yet you continue to be extremely painful, swollen, red and disgusting. Foot, come on- can't we just be friends and get along?

Let's get an update here before I crawl back into my bed. Last week went well. Melissa went with me for my infusion and LONG day of blood draws. We found our hotel via a couple of interesting sites... and apparently, I used the warthog snoring app instead of peaceful ocean sounds all night. lol...
My foot had been starting back up with the inflammation and chemo reaction from my last chemo (Doxil) again and I was worried sweet NP S was going to make me wait to start the CT (Clinical Trial) Since there was no indication of this %^&*ing hand and foot syndrome with the new CT, she let me go ahead. But because of the new CT, I didn't start on any steroids as I have the past 2 times this has happened. Let's just say that my foot, elbows and knees were NOT happy.

Wednesday, came home literally minutes before the big snow storm. Thank you God for letting M and I get home before any of the rain and snow that was predicted for us the whole way from Indy to Cincy. I felt ok but tired and sore (feet etc) Thursday, Margo and I spent most of the time on the couch and snoozing. Oh and Margo painted... by herself... and "cleaned up"... ahem.
Thursday, we had a 2 hour delay because of snow and luckily GG took my children with his to school and brought them home. My stomach just felt off but still ok.
Friday, stomach not great but able to have coffee and donut holes with Amy R. Poor Amy drew the short straw and drove me to my appointment in Indy where instead of just a blood draw, I saw Dr. M about my feet, elbows and knees. Where she nodded her head, agreed they were very pissed off and prescribed me pain meds and steroids. Amy and I stopped at Applebee's and had a good lunch. Honestly, after I got home, it all went downhill from there. I went to Target to fill rx and was in so much unbelievable pain, I was shaking and nauseous. I was happy that my niece Tricia stayed with the kids while I went to Target by myself as we might still be there. LOVE her! I popped one pain pill and two steroids and was happily smooshed on the couch by 3 Wordeman children to watch a movie. I made it through the movie and had to limp to bed. I think the pain med is what is making me so nauseous. I didn't eat or drink much and to be honest it has been a very hard couple of days. Yesterday, Sarah was in an all star basketball tournament in which she and another player from her Madeira team were chosen by their teammates to represent them in this all star tournament. I have been so excited for Sarah as I LOVE the girls on this team and their parents. They truly are just a wonderful group of very talented girls. I think we are very blessed to have the ability to not only be a part of the St. Gertrude's community but also the entire Madeira community.
So, I was bound and determined to go to her game. 2 pain pills, a steroid and some crumb cake later, I was BARELY functioning at her game. Sarah made a basket, played very well and her team won. Don't ask me the score as I was too busy limping to the bathroom to vomit and then go lay in the van. Ugh...
The rest of yesterday was a blur. I really think the pain meds are making me sick so today, I took Motrin and am feeling better. Not coffee better but in due time.
I am to go to Indy tonight and have another biopsy on my neck and blood draw early in the morning.
then have some "days off" and don't need to be back in Indy until St. Patricks Day. Then, it all starts again with infusion the week after.